Sometimes I think I am numb from the pain.
Pain? Pain of knowing that I do not fit in as well as I should in this existence
that I find myself living within.
Just want the chance to find out--
do you understand?
does anyone understand?
If I go through that window of doubt
will I ever find my way back and if I do, will anyone want me as I am?
Kindness. I don't know anymore if it even matters, if anyone will ever truly understand or care.
I'm starting to figure out that indeed I am in the wrong TIME, the wrong PLACE. Damn. I wish I had realized that before I jumped into this existence.
Guess the time is near when I will have to start all over again. Well, at least I tried while I was here. I hope next time I'll pick the right existence where my thoughts, my feelings, my beliefs will be more in tune with all else who occupy this space and time with me. This is not where I belong. I understand that now...
Looking forward to what is to come--
hope those who care will join me there...