So determined to find the ME that I want to BE. I hear echoes of the past, of when I was so alone--so fucking, absolutely ALONE and fearful that I would never, ever find another living soul to understand, to help me to see that yes, yes, yes one day I would be free and that one day life would indeed welcome me.
I'm on my way, you know. On my way to freedom from my past--freedom from the chains that held me tight and kept me from unleashing that which was the inner me. I am no longer fearful of being just who it is I NEED and WANT to be. No one can ever again hold me captive, keep me from feeling, from being, from experiencing all that is supposed to be ME.
He can't hurt me anymore. I relinquish all the hurt, all the pain, all the inner turmoil that I felt while under his grip, his domain and now I am FREE from the pain, the hold he had on me. I never thought that it would be possible, but yes, now I'm FREE and I refuse--absolutely flat out refuse to ever allow him to have that hold on me again. I am ME and by god, by universe, by all that is alive and well in this existence I am in--I will vow to never, ever, ever let him have his hold on me again.
So, just in case you don't get it (this is aimed at DR)--I am DONE letting you control my life, my heart, my mind, my body, my soul. In case you have any doubt, let me give it to you straight: I AM LETTING YOU GO. DONE. OVER. OUT. BYE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Get ready--I'm on my way to who I truly Intend for ME to BE!!!!